I am trying hard to reconcile what it is that I do.
Life gets in the way sometimes, and plans also change.
It's about seizing the moment and making informed decisions about what is the best course of action to take.
What does all of this babble mean?
I had the best of intentions when I started this blog, but I've had so many other things get in the way with life and work that it became more of a chore than something I wanted to do.
Now, obviously if I were being compensated for this effort, I would be able to spend more time and energy on it.
Alas, I am a FREE-lancer in the truest sense of the word. My day job is how I pay my bills and must be the main focus of what I do.
However, I also feel that I need to find a focus and a new direction for my efforts and energy.
I have a tendency to try to be all things to all people, and wind up disappointing most.
But not anymore.
So while I will leave this site up, I think I am going to have people migrate over to a new venture I am working on called BBW Pornucopia.
It is where my true passion in the adult industry lies, and where I will devote my energy in a greater effort and number.
The first post over there will be a rehash of the first post I placed here, but feel free to check in there after February 1 for new updates.
Farewell to here. On to the next adventure.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Keys to success, from what I've heard
1) Get it up
2) Keep it up
3) Finish when you're told
From what I have seen, read and heard from those in the adult film industry about what it takes to be male talent.
I mean, let's be frank here: the guys are stunt cocks for the most part. Plain and simple.
And while it might not seem like it takes talent to get it up, it can. Because it's not like it's just you and your partner in a bedroom.
Between false starts and stops, and not necessarily ideal working conditions, and having multiple people standing around just watching you...it's not a simple proposal.
And having been "ordered" to cum on command while having sex before, I can tell you that finishing when you supposed to is not easy, either.
That's why you tend to see the same guys over...and over....and over again.
It's about demonstrating that you are reliable and can be counted on to cum (pun intended) when necessary.
Now, I think I will stress that these are the conditions for working in professional porn.
That doesn't mean that you can't do amateur or semi-pro filming yourself.
The quality of smaller, hand-held high definition digital video cameras and the continually falling prices of storage drives, computer hardware and editing software makes it easier and easier to break into the industry—provided you have quality product to distribute.
But, I would say, that at its core, if you're shooting b/g hardcore, a solid production will still involve male talent being able to:
1) Get it up
2) Keep it up
3) Finish when necessary.
2) Keep it up
3) Finish when you're told
From what I have seen, read and heard from those in the adult film industry about what it takes to be male talent.
I mean, let's be frank here: the guys are stunt cocks for the most part. Plain and simple.
And while it might not seem like it takes talent to get it up, it can. Because it's not like it's just you and your partner in a bedroom.
Between false starts and stops, and not necessarily ideal working conditions, and having multiple people standing around just watching you...it's not a simple proposal.
And having been "ordered" to cum on command while having sex before, I can tell you that finishing when you supposed to is not easy, either.
That's why you tend to see the same guys over...and over....and over again.
It's about demonstrating that you are reliable and can be counted on to cum (pun intended) when necessary.
Now, I think I will stress that these are the conditions for working in professional porn.
That doesn't mean that you can't do amateur or semi-pro filming yourself.
The quality of smaller, hand-held high definition digital video cameras and the continually falling prices of storage drives, computer hardware and editing software makes it easier and easier to break into the industry—provided you have quality product to distribute.
But, I would say, that at its core, if you're shooting b/g hardcore, a solid production will still involve male talent being able to:
1) Get it up
2) Keep it up
3) Finish when necessary.
Laughing my ass off at my fellow man
So a few months back this summer, I signed up for one of those adult job modeling service web boards.
I do it occasionally, never expecting to get the call. I do it for fun and to try and connect with folks.
But I had gotten an email from a company saying I could "fuck real women" soon and break into the industry with them.
On a lark I tried their url today and the site did not load.
Maybe I'm not the only one who realized it was a scam.
But the reason that post was brought to mind was from something I saw on the blog of the lovely Platinum Puzzy.
In her archives, she had a moving graphic that had a line that made me pause and say, "That really happens?"
The line basically told guys that they should NOT contact her pretending to be male talent.
OMFG!
Really?
I like to think that I am not naive, but I guess I am—especially when it comes to the industry.
I mean, I know my limitations on some level; I think I could be male talent. I've been photographed and filmed, but I would never consider myself to be more than a skilled amateur at this point.
I know I have a bit to prove.
Which is probably why I've moved over to this side of things right now as a writer and commentator.
I do it occasionally, never expecting to get the call. I do it for fun and to try and connect with folks.
But I had gotten an email from a company saying I could "fuck real women" soon and break into the industry with them.
On a lark I tried their url today and the site did not load.
Maybe I'm not the only one who realized it was a scam.
But the reason that post was brought to mind was from something I saw on the blog of the lovely Platinum Puzzy.
In her archives, she had a moving graphic that had a line that made me pause and say, "That really happens?"
The line basically told guys that they should NOT contact her pretending to be male talent.
OMFG!
Really?
I like to think that I am not naive, but I guess I am—especially when it comes to the industry.
I mean, I know my limitations on some level; I think I could be male talent. I've been photographed and filmed, but I would never consider myself to be more than a skilled amateur at this point.
I know I have a bit to prove.
Which is probably why I've moved over to this side of things right now as a writer and commentator.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
See? Twitter does have a role
I received a direct message on my Twitter account from someone I am following. She had read my post wondering about the general lack of fat guys in porn. She had a question for me that got me thinking.
She asked, "Hetro guys watch to see the women right? Don't you think a LARGE man would block the view?"
I responded with, "Not necessarily. Missionary with a high camera angle. Doggie with a slightly below bed level angle. Any side camera angle will do as well."
Which I do think is the case.
Look, it's not like fat guys have never been filmed before; as I mention in the original post from a couple of months ago, just look at the gay porn world, where there are film companies devoted to bears and chubs.
She then suggested that I should start my own film company.
In a fantasy world, I probably would. Alas, I lack two things:
She asked, "Hetro guys watch to see the women right? Don't you think a LARGE man would block the view?"
I responded with, "Not necessarily. Missionary with a high camera angle. Doggie with a slightly below bed level angle. Any side camera angle will do as well."
Which I do think is the case.
Look, it's not like fat guys have never been filmed before; as I mention in the original post from a couple of months ago, just look at the gay porn world, where there are film companies devoted to bears and chubs.
She then suggested that I should start my own film company.
In a fantasy world, I probably would. Alas, I lack two things:
- The capital funds to invest in making sure that I was producing high quality work (something more than my HD digital video cameras) and for paying models
- The access to models willing to get it on with a "fluffy guy
Monday, August 3, 2009
Where the Fat Guys At?
It’s kind of funny, but I’ve been giving a lot of thought to the concept of double standards recently – especially when it comes to the world of sex.
Really, what I’m thinking about now, and what this post is about, is wondering why there aren’t really guys that look like me in porn anymore.
(Yes, I know that in gay porn there are videos available with fat and chubby guys. I’m speaking here about hetero porn.)
I am far from a hard-body; soft-bodied would definitely be the appropriate definition for me. You know who I am. I’m the kind of guy that would wear a shirt that says, “I’m in shape. Round is a shape.”
Yes, I am fat. F-A-T fat. The term “a little extra padding” would be inaccurate. “Fluffy” is another euphemism that COULD be applied to me. I prefer the term “Big Handsome Man (BHM) myself.”
But the labeling terminology is beside the point.
The point that has led me here is thinking about where are the fat guys in porn?
Yes, yes, I know: there’s Ron Jeremy.
However, has Ron actually made a film in years? And while I have much respect for the Hedgehog, I view him as more anathema and a pop culture icon/porn relic than someone who is actually active in the game today.
So I reiterate: why don’t you see fat guys in porn?
If porn, on some level, is supposed to appeal to the fantasies that live inside my head, then why can’t I have someone who looks like me appear in the films?
It’s easier for me to live a fantasy if I can imagine myself as I am fucking a beautiful woman. In my own brain, I can fuck a gorgeous woman in spite of my physical limitation; not because I suddenly developed a six pack where my keg currently resides.
To further complicate matters, I am a BHM that loves me some BBW porn. Well, I’ve heard it mentioned other places that no one wants to watch two fat people fuck. It looks like waves on the ocean, and rippling flesh and blah, blah, blah.
I still think that that’s bullshit. If the attention is focused on the woman (as I think it should be), then a big, agile guy can and should be able to perform the maneuvers that will satisfy what the director is looking for.
Yes, there are issues for some overweight guys with regards to maintaining an erection.
You know what, though? I’ve watched plenty of scenes that featured guys at half-mast lamely attempting to get through the scene.
Sometimes I’ve seen those limp dicks taking up screen time with a BBW.
Now, given the choice, wouldn’t it make for a better scene to have a BHM and a BBW who are grooving on each other and getting into it than some guy who views fucking a BBW as a way to pay the rent that month?
It’s not like you have to rig special equipment and hire seismologists to film a scene with a fat guy in it where he’s not viewed as a freak of nature.
Hell, I remember when BBW porn was classified (occasionally) as being under the “freaks” section of porn aggregator websites.
Maybe the day will come when BHM can be viewed as sexy, satisfactory costars for women of all shapes and sizes.
Of course, when that day comes, I’ll be ready for my closeup.
Monday, June 15, 2009
HIV Positive Porn Star speaks out
A link to a story about Darren James, who's HIV diagnosis in 2004 shut down the porn industry for a month: http://www.pornnewz.com/2009/06/porn-star-recalls-nightmare-of-testing-hiv-positive/
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Here we go again?
http://business.avn.com/articles/35537.html
No name has officially been released, but of course I am sure that speculation is rampant as far as who it is.
The name will leak soon enough.
No name has officially been released, but of course I am sure that speculation is rampant as far as who it is.
The name will leak soon enough.
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